Trigger warning: Rape and risky sexual behaviour.
I have quite few risk factor that can put me in danger of rape and risky sexual behaviour. Part of relates to my rainbowness and the other part to the mental health conditions. Since it is Sweat for Pride I will start with the Rainbowness. Being female body trans person who is interested in all genders attracts predators. The second layer is my poorly managed open relationship at the time. The thrid layer is me being an autistic with bipolar tendencies. So for me to have good sexual health and relationship health I need comperhensive sexual health education and sexual health checks ups that Holistic and use at least influenced by Te Whare Te Wha model of health.
My Story: During on of long term relationship that was an open relationship I was raped by someone who refused they rapid fired excuses. Enough of them to get win bingo. Took it off and went for it before I could blink. This person was not the long term partner but someone else who was targeting be because of my transgender identity, my attraction to women and my open relationship status. This person had history with "women" to the point they were on the police radar.
Now to weave into mental health stuff. My autistic hyper focus at the time was sexuality and gender. So my Autistic brain thought lets risk my body to figure out what made this person sexually tick which lead to the rape. Further complicate by impulsiveness and hypersexuality of undianogised bipolar.
The sexual health care I received:
After the rape I went to Burrnett foundation for a HIV test at the condom packing night. What I recieved was amazing service. What I remember is recieving was A prick HIV test and conversation about what lead me to needing an HIV test. The conversation was sympathic and unpacked the risk I was taking without judgement.
Why this was helpful:
As an Autistic person I needed sit down with me to break down the situation, so I could understand where I went wrong and where I could protect myself better.
Very proud of you Angela taking on this awesome challenge for yourself and the greater good of these essential services💕